I have to admit that after going to Bloggy Con it has been difficult for me to get back into the swing of things. Not only in regards to blogging, but everything. Life has been busy and though I enjoyed my time off, I got a little bit spoiled I think. Either way, I’m warning you in advance, this post falls under the “Random Ramblings” part of Familial Ramblings, so feel free to skip over it if you don’t feel like reading my random ramble that will probably make no sense at all and will probably skip all over the place.
If you’re sticking with me on this one, thanks for staying, it lets me know that you care, as does leaving blog comments and sending me emails. No, I’m not begging for comments or emails, but they are nice to get every now and then. Either way, like I said, things have been hectic for me as of late. I have class Monday nights, internship pretty much every day aside from Monday, Sunday and (soon to be) Fridays, in addition to finding time to spend with friends and family. Of course, there’s also blogging, which I could probably find more time for if I shuffled things around and learned to say “no” to people who want to me to do things for them. Since this past Friday, I’ve been thinking a lot about Familial Ramblings—where it was, how far it’s come and if I want to stick with it.
Friday, I woke up from an extremely vivid dream, in which I had a daughter. I’m not sure if any of you have had a dream where you have an infant whom is, essentially, taken away from you when you wake up. I’ve had these kinds of dreams before, but none that were ever this real where I used the name I picked out for my future daughter and it was actually the real me in the dream. You know how in dreams you sometimes see yourself differently? Well, in this one, it was actually me, which doesn’t happen often. It was heartbreaking to have her taken away from me and I honestly cried for a good ten to fifteen minutes. What does any of this have to do with blogging you may ask? Well, a lot, actually.
When I dreamt of my future child, it made me wonder if blogging was really that important to me. Was it something I was going to keep up with once I had a child or would I give it all up, could I give it all up? The answer, at the time, was “yes.” I was, at that moment, ready to give up blogging because I wanted nothing more than to be with my (non-existent) daughter. Most of this past weekend I seriously considered closing the doors of Familial Ramblings and never looking back, but then, I had a conversation with my husband. Then this morning I had a conversation with one of my very close friends.
My husband helped to remind me that, though I love blogging, it’s not my future career. I’ve been in school for almost 22 years, which is most of my life (yes, I’m including pre-school). I want to be a therapist—specifically a Couples, Marital and Family Therapist—not a full-time blogger. Blogging is my hobby and though some make a career from it (which I’m extremely jealous of, by the way), it’s not the career for me. I love writing and sharing my thoughts and ideas here. If I make a little money when blogging, then that’s fantastic, but at the end of the day, Familial Ramblings is my hobby and my outlet, one that I love.
When talking with my close friend—who is thinking about starting a blog of her own soon—she helped to also open my eyes. I find that I’m spread myself too thin when it comes to blogging. I’m spending too much time promoting, networking and trying to make it a success overall. In reality, Familial Ramblings is a success in my opinion because I have made connects and have helped others through my blog. I have spent too much time trying to fit into a mold that doesn’t work for me (which I will be writing more about later). Plus, I keep agreeing to do things for others instead of telling them that I can’t when I really don’t have the time, energy or desire. But that’s me, I say “yes” because I like helping people even if that means spreading myself too thin.
I guess the moral of the story is that I need to start making some changes—both in my personal life and my blogging life. No one knows what the future holds, but I’m ready for whatever is thrown at me. Changes are coming and I think I’m finally ready to make them. It will be an adventure.
Until Next Time.
Did you read my ramble? If so, thank you!
What changes have you recently made in your life that you feel were for the better?
Posted on September 23, 2013 by Felicia