R.I.P. Dad
After a long, hard battle, my father passed away yesterday morning. I had gotten a text around 9:00 AM from my brother telling me that they were performing CPR on him. Approximately forty-five minutes later I got a phone call from my other brother telling me that he had passed away.
I’ve noticed that my first reaction to finding out someone close has died is always, “You’re lying.” My mother says it’s normal to react that way because you’re in such a state of shock because of the news. Unfortunately, it wasn’t a lie and my father really had passed away. I had to be the one to tell my other brother (the one who had texted me in the morning), which was no easy task to say the least.
I have to say that I’m happy that I wasn’t alone when I got the news. I was off from work and had been with my husband, which I’m grateful for. I’m not sure what I would have done if I would have been on my own. My mom came home from work when I told her what had happened and even my mother-in-law offered to drive all the way up from Mississippi to be with me if I needed her. It’s great to know you have such supportive and loving family to be surrounded by in these times. You also find out who your true friends are in these times and I’m grateful for them as well.
Either way, as you can imagine, I’m not in the best state at this current time. I’m honestly not even sure if this post makes any sense what-so-ever. The long and the short of it, though, is that my father has passed away and I’m really hurting. I’m hurting more than I ever thought I would and it just goes to show that I had a stronger bond, a stronger relationship with him than I had ever imagined.
I miss my father deeply and I wish that I would have had more time with him. I wish that we wouldn’t have gotten so distant as I grew up and wish we could have gone out for one last dinner at the Chinese buffet he loved so much. I miss him and this is not going to be easy to get through.
Before I close this, I just want to say that my father was a great man. I miss him so much and love him so much. This is going to be a long road of healing, but at least I don’t have to do it alone.
Posted on April 19, 2012 by Felicia
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I’m so so sorry for your loss! My grandmother passed away from Lymphoma in December 2009 and if my boyfriend hadn’t been there at the time, I dunno what I would have done! He is such an amazing man! (We are no longer together, sadly).
Anywho.. If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to shoot me a message. My passion is helping others. I’m glad you don’t think you are alone because that’s the kind of shock I went into and I distanced myself from the entire world. Your dad loves you and he forgives you for all those little things. Don’t beat yourself up over it! I know it’s hard though; trust me.. I’ve been there and still to this day, I get those feelings. They’re completely normal
Best of luck to you! Stay strong girly! You’ve got this! Be thankful for all the fun times with him and that you had a chance to meet someone like him in your life. That’s a blessing
Brittany, you have no idea how much your comment means to me, it put a huge smile on my face. I feel as if I’m getting through it all, but every now and then it just hits me that he’s not going to be there anymore. Comments like yours, however, remind me that I did have a lot of good times with him and that’s still with me despite not actually being here. Thank you so much for your kind words.
I am so sorry for your loss. I am sending you love and light from across the Atlantic. I pray that angels walk with you now.
Thank you so much, Natasha! It’s been a really difficult time.
My condolences on your loss, Felicia. My dad passed away 17 years ago this coming May and there’s still times where I can feel the pain and heartache of losing him; my thoughts and prayers go out to you for your loss.
Thank you for your kind words, Matthew, I really appreciate it. I’m slowly moving forward, but things are still really difficult and it can be hard to think about him.
Your dad sounded like a very nice and decent guy. I wish I could have met him.
Thank you for your kind words and comment, adf. It means a lot to me.
I am sorry to hear this. I hope you are coping well with the bad news. Stay strong and hope you are doing okay.
Thank you, GAF. It’s been really difficult, but I’m trying to stay strong through it all.
Felicia, this is very horrible news. I’m so sorry. I lost my Dad to cancer over 20 years ago – but I still remember… my prayers go out to you…
Thank you for your comment and your prayers, Melody. It’s been so hard and I’m thankful for my family, friends and people like you who are so supportive. Words cannot express how much I appreciate it.
Sorry to hear this too. Hope you don’t grieve for too long.
Unfortunately, grieving is not a short process.
Oh, Felicia. I’m so sorry to hear this. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Thank you for your kind words, Janene. It means a lot to me.