Not in 2012

Deciding on what to blog about next, I’ve noticed, can be quite difficult.  Not because I don’t have anything to write, but because I have so many ideas.  I get at least one new idea that I could write about every day just by going about my day or by talking with my husband.  I was having trouble deciding what to write about, but knew I wanted it to be a bit more laid back due to feeling a bit fatigued.  While talking about my dilemma with a friend, I decided to write about ten things that I had done in 2011 that I didn’t want to repeat in 2012.  After much thought and deliberation, I came up with the following:

#10 Buried:

To start this off, I want to talk about a movie my husband and I watched on Netflix called Buried.  Let me start by saying it stars Ryan Reynolds who, in my opinion, is a fantastic actor and not too bad to look at to top it off.  Naturally I was drawn to this movie remembering other movies of his I’ve seen.  To say the least it was an interesting movie, but due to circumstances that occur during this movie, it turns depressing pretty fast.  Don’t get me wrong, it was a good movie, but I would have a very happy movie on standby for afterwards.

#9 The Human Centipede:

Yes, I watched the movie The Human Centipede after being warned that it was probably a movie I should stay away from.  If you’ve seen the movie, you won’t have any questions as to why I wouldn’t want to see this again in 2012, let alone ever again…come to think of it, they did come out with a second one not too long ago.  Maybe it won’t be so bad…NAH!

If you haven’t seen the movie, take my word for it:  DON’T.  You’ll thank me later.

#8 Megan is Missing:

Having Netflix can be a blessing and a curse–especially when I pick random movies that sound good on paper.  Megan is Missing is about a girl who meets a guy online and then later in the movie goes missing, sounds interesting enough, right?  I actually thought it was going to be a really bad movie, but being a person who will watch just about anything once, I decided to watch it with my husband.  Needless to say, we shouldn’t have watched it seeing as it turned out to be a very disturbing moving. Much like The Human Centipede I will not be watching this movie again in 2012.  I’m starting to wonder if I should be responsible for picking out movies this year, maybe I’ll leave it to my husband instead considering the bad luck I had last year.

#7  Friday:

This really isn’t something I have any control over, but I want to try to avoid seeing any (in my opinion) stupid music videos starring a girl singing about “Friday.”  Seriously, did we really need that?  It could have been worse, I suppose, it could have been another movie that I’ll never be able to get the images out of my brain.

#6 Oh Deer:

No, that’s not a typo, I really mean “deer” as in the four legged creature that runs about in the woods.  Picture it:  Fourth of July 2011 I was driving home from the annual family picnic minding my own business when suddenly a deer smashes into the driver’s side of the car.  I did well with keeping the car under control despite driving up onto the sidewalk.  I was the only one in the car with any injuries; though, it was nothing major, just some scratches on my hand.  The car was totaled, but the deer ran off as if nothing happened.  My mom’s car, which is what I was driving, was able to be fixed, but to this day you can still see pieces of deer hair in the window.  Car accident with a deer, certainly not something I want to repeat.

#5 Procrastinate Much?:

Maybe I’ll just finish this post up later…NO!  In 2011 I found myself procrastinating, and though this isn’t anything knew I felt as if I was doing it even more so than usual.  Procrastination usually comes about when I’m in school–especially when writing a paper is involved.  Instead of procrastinating this year, I want (and will) do projects, assignments, readings and so on far in advance.  This way instead of shedding tears over a paper not being finished and starting fights with my husband because I’m so stressed out, I’ll be able to relax and really learn the material.  Do you think I can do it?  No?  Ye of little faith!

#4 The Green-Eyed Monster:

Hi, my name is Felicia and I have a problem with jealousy.  The first step is admittance, right?  In 2011 I realized how jealous of a person I can really be.  I get jealous of the stupidest things, which at the time I don’t think are stupid.  During 2012 I’m going to work on getting my jealousy issue in check because, honestly, it just adds more stress that I simply do not need.

#3 Smile Like You Mean It*:

I feel like during 2011 I shed a lot of tears and throw around a lot of angry feelings.  I don’t want to do that this year; I want this to be the year of smiles.  I really want to work on being happier this year and not being so down about things, mad about things or so stressed out about things.  I want to be happy and I want to smile.

#2 Let it Be**:

My husband tells me that I’m a “dweller” and guess what…he’s right (don’t tell him I said that!).  Instead of dwelling on situations I have little to no control over, I just need to let it go.  In 2012 I don’t want to spend my time worrying about friends who don’t want my help even if they need it nor do I want to attempt to be friends with someone who doesn’t actually want to be my friend.  I also want to avoid being caught up in unnecessary drama that may meet me at the front door.  I need to just let things go and concentrate on me, which leads me to the final thing I did in 2011 that I don’t want to do in 2012.

#1 For Me:

This is hands down the one thing I want to change in 2012.  I’m a caring, giving person to put it simply–it was the way I was raised.  The problem is, I think I’ve become somewhat of a pushover, which slowly started causing problems for me.  I would do just about anything someone would ask me to do (within reason) and then forget about doing things for me.  I can’t remember how many people asked me to help with their websites/forums last year and instead of saying, “No, I have to work on ________” or “I’m kind of busy, so I won’t be able to” I said, “Yeah, sure!  No problem” when it actually was a problem.

I love the friends I have, I love my family and I don’t want to let anyone down at work, but in the New Year, I want to stop doing everything for everyone else and then do nothing for myself.  I want to take time to do things for me instead of worrying about doing everything for everyone else.  It’s my time now.

Well, that concludes the things that I did in 2011 that I don’t want to repeat or things I want to change in 2012.  Do you think I can change or avoid the things I’ve said above?  Let’s hope for the best in 2012!

*An awesome song by The Killers

**An amazing song by The Beatles